its that time again i dont knnow why ive been soooo goooooood but okay here i am again waking up crying i dunno what to do with mysef cause im that disgusting and ugly and stupid. im in germany a year ago ive been so happy in seattle. I met people that actually understood me. People who really cared - none of you fuckers here do care about anyone else but yourself. You call me because you want drugs or you need this or that. I call you because you feel like shit. that aint fair. It aint fair that you say things like “omg my life sucks so much and i wanna kill myself” while people out there actually do kill themselves and nobody knew how fucked up their life was. but yes of course yours is worse! 

im sick of you german bastards. Suck my vagina. I cant be here any longer because everyday it gets worse everyday i cry more bcause everyday i relive seattle i remember ecery single day and i just miss it so much i cant put it into words its killing me i will cut for seattle cause i cant handle this pain im so jelly of everyone whos in the states right now i know its normal for them but fuck that i HATE GERMANY SO MUCH 

Ill build an atomar bomb and blow up this fucking country ill splatter it into a million pieces and then ill puke over it and il propably shit over it aswell. Yeah fuck you. 

ill stop eating now ill just starve to death i think thats a cute death well at east il look good when dead :)